Whip cream, cottage cheese, sour cream, yogurt, a sippy, some rotten cucumbers, tortillas, and wedding cake filling. Seriously. It's not pretty.
My mom buys milk every now and then for me, and bread. We eat cold cereal, hot dogs, or eat out pretty much every night. (and by "out" my mean a drive thru) It's bad.
Don't panic. I went to Costco today. Things are looking up in the food department.Survival mode, I say. And in case you didn't know this about me, I don't like survival mode. I like highly functioning mode. I like busy, get things done, emotionally stable, you can rely on me mode.
But as for right now? Not so much.
It's just the proverbial clock tickin' away until this baby gets here. Here are the highlights, or low - which ever the case may be:
*I hired my very own Helper Girl!!! Hooray! Amanda is the greatest thing that happened to me. She cleans, runs kids places, helps with homework, does laundry, plays with the kids, or whatever I may need. Oh I love her. She's my very own Mary Poppins. (I know, I'm the luckiest girl in the world. Don't think I don't know it)
*I've made huge strides on the quilts for the new house. I'll show you sometime. They're cute.
*My mother has all but moved in. Truly one of the biggest blessings of my life right now. I don't know what I would do without her and my dad. (and other friends and family as well) She spends most nights, helps with the kids, gets them to school, and is just here for me. It's wonderful.
*I got released from my RS calling on Sunday. I cried when the Bishop told me, although I was expecting it. It's just that I had no idea, when I was called, I would love these women so much. I have learned more than I could have ever guessed. I will miss this experience terribly.
*Lost my debit card. Ordered a new one, two weeks and 20 checks later.
*Lost my cell phone. Found my cell phone. (please remember I'm not dealing with a full deck - my brain cells are outs right now)
*Packed and sent 5,000 pounds of our life here, across the sea to the surface of the sun. (Did you know I LOVE space bags? I mean love. If you've never used them. Go, this very second to your nearest Target/WalMart/ShopKo and get some! You'll love them!)
*Laid in my bed. A lot. Laid on my couch. A lot.
*Blinked back A LOT of tears. Everyday I almost cry. Then I remind myself, I don't like to cry. And I don't. And then I'm fine. (sometimes)
*Tried not to yell at my kids. Frequently unsuccessfully. But with Amanda and my mom around so much, it's much easier to keep my cool. They take a lot of pressure off. Thank heavens.
*Been to the doctor way more than I like. I hate this stage. Oh well.
And so. That's about the size of things around here. (don't even MENTION my size right now!)
Not exciting.
As I tell everyone who asks, "We're hangin' in there."
And that's the truth.
Hanging on by a thread.
3 comments:
I am so sorry my dear. I don't know how you're doing it, honestly. When does Peter get home? Another 2 weeks? Maybe this will make the actual move so much better emotionally for the whole family. You'll just be so glad to be with Peter all the time again that you could be moving to the middle east and you wouldn't even care. Oh wait.
I love all your updates. Thanks! I can't believe you're doing all this. Thank goodness for mom and Amanda, right? Hanging in there and survival I'm sure are the words of the day! Keep it up, wish I could help....
Oh, goodness, I want to come and hug you and let you cry it out with me right now! If it's any consolation, you are helping me appreciate our "up in the air" situation-- it feels very insignificant right now. In a good way.
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